Good morning Emmess, there is life with Joy after the storm, it is stated in the BIBLE.
This is the hardest stage we find ourselves in, acceptance. From all of this havoc we are constantly learning, growing, becoming better people, better partners, better Fathers.
Keep doing YOU, keep doing what your doing, you are heading in the right direction brother, I know youre probably confused but keep asking GOD in prayer for an answer for guidance, he is with us.
Keep thinking positive, keep being an awesome dad, keep learning.
I truly value who you are as a person and how much you have changed since you have been here, even though I don't know you personally, I know you are great person and deserve a great partner. Don't fear.
