Good that you are going to see the L about an amicable agreement on your daughters, but you keep playing that VICTIM role, unfortunately we don't all see you as the victim, I apologize if I am being too straight forward but..
She didn't run away from you because YOU liked being stepped on or because you never stood up for yourself, that doesn't make ANY sense...
Your W is running from YOU for a different reason and you are failing to acknowledge that and change that.
I wish you the best of luck, keep praying for GOD to guide you!