have i been making mistakes too long part 7

[tkdmme]

Ghost,

I have been reading your thread since you started here and you are definitely doing a lot better as far as I can tell. Your advise is appreciated and I too am trying to learn to take advise and use it correctly.

The hardest thing for me at this point is accepting things the way they are right now. I keep thinking this is something that I can manipulate into what I want. I know that there is nothing I can say or do to effect the way the W feels about me and our R. There has been times that I have felt like I was getting to a point of acceptance but then I go back to trying to fix things.

I think I am at that point again but I have been wrong so many times I don't trust my feelings.

I really want to accept it and give her what she wants at this point. Its just very hard. She says that it took her a long time to get to this point where she no longer wants to work on our M. It may also take me the same amount of time.

We got along fine last night and I asked her to be patient with me and that I was really trying to understand and accept what is happening. I agreed that things were less than perfect in our R. I validated her feelings for the first time instead of fighting her on her decision.

I know that I should not have brought this up to her but the look on her face was worth it. I could tell that she was relieved and we both walked away peacefully.