Thanks for the kind words, Grlonfr and Blugirl.

At this point, I don't really want my W back anymore because the W I know isn't a person I want to be in a M with. If she initiated a reconciliation and was committed to the process, was clearly serious, I would most likely give it a shot under guidance from my IC and a MC--because that's what I believe in and who I want to be--but it would likely be a very long, slow process and knowing her as I do she just isn't the kind of person right now who would do that kind of work if she didn't see some sort of immediate benefit to her.