There's a lot to process in circumstances like this. I have accepted the organic evolution of my emotional repair. I feel the "emotion du jour" as it arises. I have given up on emotional control of myself. I manage my emotions better then I ever have but I feel what I feel. It has gotten a lot better over time.
Trust is an issue on my plate also. I can't deal with it yet because I don't know if there will be a marriage at all.
