Such a mixed bag of feelings. I am getting tired of feeling this way. I know that there is so much more to look forward to. I know that I am unique, and I'm so much more than how I feel at this moment.
I miss my wife, and being with my family. I also need to remember that there is life after all of this, that I know I can make it with or without her. To accept the new reality of my life. I deserve to be treated well, to be loved, but more importantly I need to love myself, and accept myself.
I need to find that focal point, that will turn things around for me. I have dived deeper into personal development, and an exploration of the self. I have always felt as if there has been something missing in my life. Something that has not allowed me to fully connect with my significant other, or even any other intimate relationships in my past. I am working on figuring that out, in looking inside and really figuring out who I am.
I am trying to shift my focus from my wife to me, to my kids, to what I can accomplish during this time. I just really dislike feeling this way (and I know I am not alone). So much work to elevate your mood every morning.
