She Left, not as unsure (2)

[Shrike]

Things I know 2 months after day zero:

My marriage is over

She is my ex, she is not the girl I knew.

She is her own person whom I have no control over

She is dating another man

I still love her

I am physically sick still from anxiety over all of this

I have taken steps to control the physical sickness

I am in an ok place mentally but have also contacted a therapist for this

My daughter is showing signs of depression/anxiety, I have also contacted a therapist for her and I.

I am controlling my emotions about everything surprisingly well since last week.

Finding out about om, actually may have been the catalyst for me to start really detaching.

Om is apparently good with kids, works as a speech therapist for handicapped children, a really nice guy, is more outgoing than my wife and likes beer a lot. Thanks for telling me oh he also likes to talk to and try and date married women good stuff

Yes the paragraph above was jealousy. I'm working on that as well. Don't feel as bad as I make it out to be right now. I promise.

Moving on, my job stinks, need to start school asap

I am attractive, young, make a decent living, in pretty good shape, very humble and I binge watch game of thrones.

I deserve the love and attention that I can bring to a relationship returned to me.

I am also very sarcastic!

I came at her too strong with the emotion while moving stuff together, scared her a bit, because I think she almost wanted to come back for a second. She seemed to be second guessing things, but I may be off on this. Can't read her mind! No expectations helped after she went back into her rolly poley ball and distanced again.

Will back off again and reassess the dynamic.