Sounds like things are slowing moving forward. It seems like your wife is feeling more free to be open in her communication. How strangely dissatifying to be on the other end of the openness now at this time. I know Pigpen has been experiencing a similar type of openness from his wife and talks about how unsettling it has been for him.
The small snapshot of you and two kids on you hike together is a lovely scene to imagine. It gives me a great sense of joy in the togetherness and connectedness you must of felt in that moment. I am so pleased to hear that you are experiencing these moments. They lessen the load and the toll of more practical and pragmatic issues. Revell in them dear friend for they will see you through.
And what's a little emotion at this time, in the grand scheme of all the ups and downs of this life's journey. I found for such a long time I felt numb with it all. Numbed by the need to do the right thing at the right time. Now there is just time to feel. Let it come and let it pass. The raging war against or turning a back to makes it linger in my experience. And to be honest U, I feel that its time you got to step into the fullness of your wonderful self, where you stop anticipating every event and response. I would love you to have the freedom to be yourself and to please yourself first. That is my wish for you for now. I have images of Tinker Bell and clapping running through my head, because I believe in wishes. LOL
Anyway U, I am at work and it's home time on Tuesday 27th of October 17:02pm NZ daylight saving time.
Talk soon
PS I got your message on my thread, I promise I will update it for you.
