Avanti I feel that the medication will help me as it has really leveled me out. Only problem is that it has left me too low. I gave it six weeks and had to do something else. Called the doctor two weeks ago and he wanted me to wait. I'm on my third day of the new dosage and can't tell anything yet. Thank you for checking on me as I am really struggling. Nothing will pick me up right now. It would be very easy to do something I would later regret right now as I have women calling me and texting. I know that I am not ready and I do not want to hurt anyone. Just want to kill the pain. Not a drug user or drinker.
Rouky sadly I did spend my weekend watching TV and sleeping. I am just barely functional right now. I wish you were here to drag me out and make me have some fun. There is just so much negativity around me right now. Saw STBXW at the recital yesterday and was struck with how immature she was acting. It's amazing how a little time apart brings some clarity. Her family was very kind to me however and I was moved by that.
S13 is an amazing musician and I am so very proud of him. S's 25 and 24 are doing very well also. How do I be strong for them? I know that they are watching me and they expect me to fight through this. Please pray for me.
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
