Just want to let you know I'm thinking about you. You will get through this. Don't worry about being divorced. I tell myself that emotionally my husband and I have been divorced for a while now, so legal paperwork means little.
I really feel like you are headed for great things, once you get past this obstacle. Seems like you have been held back a bit, so i am predicting that in the future I will be reading about how much happier you are and all the wonderful things you are now able to experience.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015