Hmm, I would sit on this a while longer...I think you are still a little raw and reacting. If you truly can't make the full journey - fine - but don't do it in reaction to what recently happens IMHO...

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus