Your husband sounds like mine, and it sounds like you're getting a divorce. I've been with him for 33 years...with kids now leaving...I can do this now, but I'm scared. It's not that I don't love him in a way, I just feel so bad about myself when I'm with him most of the time. I'm talking to a phone counselor today. Sometimes hope just stops what needs to be done. Good luck to you. Shelley