My W told me this weekend that she would love for me to find someone new and that it would not bother her in the least for me to start another R. I find this hard to believe. She has always been jealous of other women. I played piano for a living for a while and she used to watch me like a hawk and freak out every time another woman looked at me.
It may not bother her but the thought of her having a new man makes me sick to my stomach. I still have a gut feeling that their is at least an EA going on but I cant prove anything.
My life is so messed up these days. Its hard to believe that things will ever be normal for me again. I don't know if I am strong enough to get through this. I hate to say that but that is how I feel. I am so angry with her stubborn attitude. I know that things between us could be great but she will not even entertain the thought of reconciling.
M:39 W:40 S:10 S:7 D:12 BD:3/5/15 Separate BR:3/5/15 W moved out with kids 1/3/16
