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[Mona52]

Thanks Zephyr for the smile!

123mich, yep, still feeling pretty crappy about what I found out.

mutatio, I did exactly that and had a great weekend.

Judy, the middle and youngest had a ball, even though they were volunteered. The oldest grumbled and complained the entire time. Hours straight of complaining. Finally I had enough and told her next year she was not invited. Me and the other 2 are doing it without her from now on. She acted like I slapped her. "No mommy, I want to go, please?" OMG...

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Friday night I went out and had a blast again. The band was not so loud, so the whole gang were talking and laughing the whole time. I just met these people and most are over 20 years older than me,but a few are my ago. But I feel like I have been part of the group for years.

We went to breakfast after, and one of the guys picked up the tab for the entire table! (yes, free food makes me happy, lol)

I asked a friend to take our picture and wounded up with the absolute best picture of me and my mother I ever had.

Then, Saturday morn, I woke the kids up before the sun and we went to volunteer at a parade, so we had to walk the parade route. There were a ton of people I know sitting along the road watching the parade so it was great. I had fun almost the entire time.

I posted my Friday and Saturday picts on facebook and my niece and one of my old friends found out I was actually out, and this friday they want to go out with me. I stopped going out since getting married and becoming a mom, so they were kinda shocked. Now that I know they are coming, I am so excited about this friday!

Sunday I got some rather shocking news. It seems my mother and her new boyfriend are moving faster than anyone expected... She has known him for 2 months and she is planning to move in with him.

She told me if I did not want to move into the house, she was going to rent it out to a stranger.

Currently, we live in the middle of the city in a run down, crappy house we rent. The neighbors are horrid and we have been robbed more than a lot.

My mother lives in the suburbs and there is actual grass in the front and back yards! We have a patch of grass smaller than my car in the front and no grass in the back at all. Currently we park on city streets, which means tickets for street cleaning. When it snows we have to dig a spot, and place a chair in our spot when we go to work so that hopefully we have a spot when we come home from work. It is horrid.
The neighbors are constantly juts sitting on their porches, day and night, along the entire street. It makes me so uncomfortable to have people watching me every singe time I leave or come home.
Our windows have been broken and the neighbor kids have drew on our house with permanent marker. The first day I moved in a little 4 year old was walking this tiny fluffy dog in front of our home. Around the corner came this 6 year old with this pit bull. The small children could not control either dog and before I knew it the pit bull had the other dog. I ran over and tried to pull the pit bull off the other dog, but I was too late. However, at that exact moment, my neighbor, whom I have never met before came out of the front door. She owned the small white dog. I had the pit bull in my hands, and her poor doggie did not make it.
She started screaming at me how I was going to pay for her dog, and on and on. I finally calmed her down enough to tell her I did not own the pit bull, but she has been uncomfortable ever since.
We all hate living where we live. I could move out right now if I wanted to, now that mom is moving. EXCEPT, jerk face moved in with my mom. So now I have to wait until he moves out.
The kids and I living in a normal house will go far in fixing issues we had in our marriage.

The day he moves out of her house, I will have completely fixes the 2 items I know I need to fix. Neither of these problems are my fault and it is not fair I have to fix them. So i have to keep telling myself, do i want to be fair and right, or married?
Seriously, now that I kicked him out, he finally got a full time job, but if he only would have worked while he lived here we could have moved years ago...

After a great Friday, Saturday and the good news Sunday, I crashed down real far again last night. My S came in my room and gave me a hug and I just started crying all over the poor boy. I have cried in private since he left, but I have not cried much about the actual separation. I cried when I could not hang a stupid painting, but last night I just bawled because i flat out juts missed my husband.

I see so much good happening and I am alone and it was so sad. So again I am trying to get back on even ground.