Still working on remaining strong, loving my wife from a distance, and occupying myself to keep my mind off of things. These thoughts of her saying I miss you's and I am thinking of you's to this OM, when they just met are really getting to me. I am just trying to keep my mind busy at this point, and remember to forgive and let it go.
Azzork, my goals aren't going to well to be honest. I need to double down and refocus. I have slowed down on the drinking but the business, I haven't really sat and started. The detaching as you can tell is a process which is difficult and I tend to have backpedaled; so working myself up again.
I am trying to tear down that pedestal. I know there were reasons I myself was unhappy in the relationship, but it seems that all I can focus on are the good times with my wife.
Feeling very heart heavy this morning. I just can't seem to let it go. I don't know why I just can't stop thinking about it all. Part of my gets angry at myself for sulking, and playing the victim. When is it enough? When is it that I can finally move forward and not take her things personally. I dislike the fact that I keep thinking about what she is doing, is she talking to him, what are they going to be doing together. It is crazy, the amount of time that I am giving this. Working on it, simple concept to accept things as they are, and to not take it personally, but not easy to implement.
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms
