Thanks Rouky for your input. It has helped my thinking.
wow Z, I glanced through foreveryoungs threads.He seems like an mamazing guy. What a great mind v,frame. I have not gone back far in his istory but will. Glad he is getting progress.I feel weak and doubt I could stand that long. But I'm still standing so who knows.
Mutatio,i follow your story as it is good to know we share a similar struggle.It is tough but really helps to know I have support.AtAt times I feel really alone in the world. I am makingffriends and getting out, but can't/won't talk to about this or other big issues. Fogg's last post to you is great advice.I have been trying to nit give up until I am happy with a better me.
Thanks DB friends
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together