less confused newbie. (6)

[dday]

I know that you all are right. I know that I keep grasping for signs of hope. I wish that I could stop doing it, but haven't yet. I have seen that W is actually starting to follow me around, pursue. Telling me her plans etc.

May mean nothing, may be the start to rebuilding. I will try and keep expectations in check, but that is the hardest for me.

The last few interactions, W has seen me actually happy and having fun. That has to help. No more depressed dday. No more angry. No more selfish. No more drinking. More fun loving. More of a better dad. More of a better friend.

I'm not done yet, but I am gaining on the one only a fool would leave. It feels good. I'm having fun again. Living again