You need to see a MC right away. I haven't seen a couple yet who have gotten back together and made it last without it. You need someone who will help you navigate through those turbulent waters. Over time, those bad thoughts will fade away.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.