Good to hear from you Cherry. I agree with what the others said and I think you both need professional help navigating through this difficult time.
I'm concerned with many of the things hes said when you try to talk about things or get help. I'm not sure what you should exactly do but I don't think sweeping things under the rug will be healthy for either of you in the future.
Keep us updated and good luck.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be