Sotto sotto voce

[Sotto]

Hello V, thanks for the wise words on the financials. I think the figures quoted were for a contested D...but I couldn't be sure without checking. It sounds to me as though H's L has also advised him to declare and evidence everything - presumably so there isn't any potential later comeback. I guess the downside (and maybe upside) for me is a delay in resolving things, but that's not the end of the world and really until we get a buyer for the house we do have the gift of time.

Pink, thanks for your kind words. I do still feel anguish and I do still find myself processing things. I wouldn't say my life in general is sad, but there is a veil of sadness for this particular part of my life. I'm still working on releasing anger and I do primal scream in the car sometimes as driving is often when I think.

I chopped carrots the other day and imagined they were OW's fingers and the thought didn't even make me go eww - I just chopped even harder. I still struggle with the unfairness of her stepping into 'my life' when her last R was also an A and ended her former partner's M too - and then she cheated on him with H. I feel she isn't deserving but then a R with H, given where he's at probably isn't a great gig either.

But, I'm doing okay, given all circumstances. It's been a bit of a quieter week socially this week and I find my PMA is better when I do more - but I do need a bit of recharge time too. I've been working away today and I'm seeing a friend tomorrow afternoon. Plus I have plans to see SS and his Mum Monday night. Then my divorce recovery workshop starts the following week. In many ways, I just keep moving forward, trusting in the process, reading, learning and hoping that all will 'fall into place' (in whichever way) at some point....

Thanks for stopping by xx