Working towards awakening, letting it go, moving forward w/o looking back. I realize that the hurt that I am feeling from my wife's actions is me being stuck in this victim mentality. She deserves to be happy, whatever that is, right now she feels that this is it for her. I may not agree with it, but as we all know we can't control that. I am hurting myself, torturing myself, while she doesn't give it a second thought. Is that fair? I don't think so, but I can't blame her, God has a plan for each of us, and this obstacle, that man in her life currently, my hurt, it all happened for a reason.
We are meant to continue to grow, to continue to be the highest level of ourselves, that our lord has given us one life, one amazing life, to do with it whatever we chose. I do believe my marriage is worth the time I am spending hoping to make it work.
So I will move forward working on myself, becoming a better person, a better version of who I was, becoming the man I need to be to have the life I want to lead. I will continue working on forgiving myself, and forgiving my wife, loving myself, and loving her, it isn't going to be easy, I know, but its worth it. We all deserve to be happy, and happiness is something we find in ourselves. I hope that my wife and I find ourselves together again with our loving children, with lots of love, respect, and support. I will pave the road in hopes that one day we do find ourselves again, if God sees it as part of my plan, but I will move forward without restrictions, if in my journey I find someone who moves and excites me, I'll be open to receive what the lord has in store for me. I am not ready for that at the moment, and will not go out looking, but won't shy from it if it finds me.
God Bless you all. This journey is still in its infancy, and the biggest gift I've been given has been the time to learn more about myself, time that I have never taken to get to know the most important person in my life. ME.
YES, the biggest gift is to learn yourself and love yourself!
Im with you buddy, we are still young, you are a great person and it shows from your words.
Keep detaching, go out and meet new people, I find meeting new people creates new possibilities and growth. Life is seriously too short. God bless you!
