How are things going for you? I know it is a hard and difficult time to process. There is a lot of anguish, and there will be for a while. It's our own roller coaster to live.
I had my struggles but I feel a tiny itsy bit better now. Some stuff still hurts a lot, but I see myself with more clarity and the sadness is not always present.
It's one day at a time, tomorrow will be a better one.
Hope you are busy having fun with your sister. I miss my three sister back in Brasil. It's lovely to spend some time with the ones we love.