Zero steps forward

[Pax_luv]

I feel bad that I put myself out there and am not doing a good job at responding to others on this forum... I find that I don't have great advice, instead I'm on here absorbing all that I can. That is all- just feeling like a moocher!

OK journaling-
I saw my IC this evening.. I found out that H started going back to her too. Uch....she probably knows more than I do about my sitch now that he's caught her up on his side/feelings. It just doesn't feel good. I know she's trying to get me to move on... there's a 100% likelihood that she's encouraging H to do the same. It makes me feel really defeated and all that faith and hope has flown out the window for now. Sometimes it's nice to be in my little bubble of prayer and hope and dbing without having to hear from others to MOVE ON! I still have fight in me.. I really do....Ughhh this is so FRUSTRATING! OK venting over.