Need advice for a WW who left Part 4

[dwh15]

WW had the kids tonight and I was out tending bar at my local charity. WW texts me around 7pm saying her power is out and wanting to know if I lost mine too. Told her I wasn't home so not sure but S16 was home alone and asked if she could call to check on him. She couldn't get through on the phone and neither could I so WW took all the other kids back to my place with her, and turns out we did have power. Someone had left a phone off the hook, making it impossible for a call to get through.

So she updated me that all the kids were fine, then made everyone dinner at my place, since she wasn't able to cook at her own. She hung out for about an hour, then headed back to her own place, presumably to get back to OM as fast as possible, who was sitting alone in a house with no power. Not sure what the rush of going back to a dark house was and leaving her kids alone, but I don't try to figure out WW's decisions anymore.

When I got home, I saw that she had cleaned the kitchen and even made school lunches for the next day. Probably the first time in 3 or 4 months she's helped out with something like that. So I did appreciate it, and almost sent her a TM thanking her for the help, but then I figured: it's no emergency. I do the same things almost every day and never get a Thank You from WW. It's her own kids - she SHOULD be doing that sort of stuff. So I didn't bother contacting her and never heard anything else all night. I'll probably throw her a quick Thanks for cleaning the kitchen the next time she asks about the kids, just to acknowledge that I noticed.

So overall a pretty good night, other than some minor drama at the club while bartending, but that was just a snarky patron and had nothing to do with WW. I'm feeling mostly detached but still sad at times. Once in a while, I want to reach out and try to be friends with WW, but I realize I'm still not there, and being in regular contact with her would just hurt my own progress. Plus, I start thinking about what she's done and then don't think she really deserves my friendship. I've never had a friend, or anyone for that matter, hurt me as bad as WW - I certainly wouldn't choose to be friends with anyone else who had nuked my life the way she has done. So I continue on with bare min contact for now, and try to keep focusing on my own life, and what's best for me and my kids. Things are getting better a little at a time.