Wow, mind is blown 9

[Azzork]

you said this:

Now, nearly 6 months later I feel as if I am growing as a person and doing some soul searching to fix myself, but it doesn't seem as if I am any closer to my end goal.

then you said this:

my "end goal" is to be HAPPY and feel WHOLE again.

Judging from the posts and your tone over the last few months, I would say you are PLENTY closer to your end goal. Dont you think?