I am DBing with R in mind but that is not the only reason. I want to also learn how I contributed to the meltdown of our R and how to avoid doing it again whether it be with XF or a new woman.

I have many goals I am working on. But my "end goal" is to be HAPPY and feel WHOLE again. No matter what happens. That is where this stage [censored] because it feels like I have no direction.

Me 34, XF 27
Many years together
Son 4
Engaged
Not engaged
Many false starts by XF
7/16 new girlfriend comes into my life
2/17 girlfriend moves in my home