have i been making mistakes too long part 6

[tkdmme]

IC told me last night that it was time that I started the legal process. Im not sure that I agree. He said that he didn't think that the W was going to do anything to save the marriage and that I had no choice but to move on. She is still in the house just waiting for me to leave to my next project out of town.

She still blames me for everything and even said to me that she hates that I am trying to be a better father now that she is done with the M. She blamed me for her drinking and marijuana use even though she was a heavy drinker and smoker before we met. She says she did everything in our M and that I didn't contribute at all other than money. She says all of these things with a smirk on her face.

Anyway, I just wanted to give an update. I am still very sad and overwhelmed. I don't want the D and I don't want to be a part time dad to my children. I cant believe that she is not happy with the person im trying to become. It boggles my mind that she is so obstinate and self righteous. She thinks she has done no wrong and didn't contribute to the breakdown of our M at all. I understand that she would feel this way at the time of BD but to still feel the same now blows my mind.

She told me the other night that she knows that I will meet someone great and live a happy life and that she will probably be alone and miserable for the rest of hers. she even said that she would probably be dead soon anyway. What the hell does that mean?