I am still dealing with my feelings but through your help I have come to realize a few things.
The feelings I have been having towards this, yes, betrayal is there. I have only been 4 months in, I understand she has been detaching a lot longer but I think she could have at least waited till we were completely separated to begin doing her.
Other things I am realizing are that I feel this way because of my insecurities, my bruised ego, this sense of ownership (although I know I never owned her), and pride. I have to look inside, and really process these feelings. Part of me goes through this different thoughts, fight it, hold on to it, and another says, let her have what she wants, let her pursuit what she wants to pursuit, see if this OM is really what she wants.
Such a process in the morning to just get to a good place... I have to try to look forward without looking backwards but without bitterness...
Thank you Sandi, Azzork, and ILYNOT. Your words are definitely provoking some serious searching. This isn't easy, I miss her and love her, and yet she is gone or far ahead.
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms
