Throughout your whole situation, did you EVER read the DB or DR books?
Be honest now. Many people have asked you what you did to betray her trust and you've always danced around the question. If you don't tell us we can't help. Your marriage can still be saved but we need more info.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.