She Wants Me to Leave....3rd Time in 4 Years

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Today was more difficult as I had a fitful nights sleep in a hotel bed. Much prefer my bed!

Spent a good deal of thinking time pondering the positives and negatives of the interactions over the last few days between me and W. I swung between optimistic and despondent and have to remind myself its a long road to D.
For every 'positive' there seems to be an equal and opposite 'negative'.

Before the BD , whenever I was away on a business trip, W would ring me at 7am on her way to work and we would chat for 30 mins as she drove to work.It was always a nice way to start the day. Now no calls and it makes me sad.

It was hard to concentrate on the work course..all day.... very hard.

But I did start to crystallize plans to learn to Salsa dance.I looked up some local classes to where I live and started to watch and try basic dance steps from U Tube videos.

I figure that its a GAL I can opt into or out of as I travel around the country with my job and its got an added bonus as my W likes to salsa dance. She danced Salsa before I met her (intermediate) but more or less gave it up after S11 was born. If she finds out I am doing lessons - she will sit up and take notice.

Maybe its a bit early to start a more radical GAL - but at least I can practise in my hotel rooms!

Rang W to speak to the kids just before I went to my confernce meal with colleagues. W had had a difficult evening yesterday
with S11 who seems very hormonal (lots of tears for little reason). He is very tired after a taxing first 6 weeks in Senior school. He is getting up early for school and even earlier when I am away on business.

I validated W's feeling on this and then asked to speak to kids - She got a little sore 'Is that all you want to speak with me!' I said I only had 5 mins before meal - she accepted this.

She wants to sack me as H but still wants long convos re kids etc...we will see.

Onwards and upwards. Tomorrow I am back home around 8pm and have 3 nights with the kids before they have a weekend away with W at her friends house 200 miles away.