WAS or what (3)

[roist]

In celebration of my anniversaries a new thread seems fitting.

10 years ago tonight I made a romantic proposal which lead to our wedding one year and a day later.

And in a few days will be my one year anniversary of trying TRYING
and more trying to save my M. Longest and worst year of my life. And to be honest I may only have managed to prevent further deterioration as I find it hard to see us being any better.

During this time I have realised what is important to me. I have started to improve me. I have a better R with my boys. I am more sociable. I am no longer depressed but still stressed. When this situation runs its course I will be better. In the meantime my pain and stress is a choice. I do not choose stress and pain and do wh I can to get passed that. But I choose to keep trying and pay the price that entails. I believe we could be happy together as a family and as a couple.Whether we will or not is to be seen.

I have no expectations for tomorrow so I won't be disappointed.Soon I may not wish to acknowledge our anniversary so whilst I do. Happy anniversaryW