First Post, She just Left, Very unsure

[Shrike]

i definitely feel as if Ive only been reacting to everything that's happened.

kept thinking i was in a good place, but i think it was just me telling myself i was ok, and i still am really not ok.

like Sandi said its time for me to get serious.

i realize i am having a really hard time detaching. and that ive always had a hard time with not reacting out of anger or irritation. i am going to try and see a a therapist for anger issues i think. it just takes so long for me to see a doctor... i am barely getting to talk to my primary care and still have to get a referral.