Lost and confused 2

[Clairee]

Thanks Sotto for stopping by & your thoughts. H is military & we've been through 20 years of deployments & separations. I guess I expected this to be just like any other & to not feel so insecure. Until this last separation, these thoughts never crossed my mind. Then wham, BD that he's had an affair, lied for months & now I'm in a position I have no choice but to trust without being able to verify. All I have are his words. I know there is a chance he'll run into OW because they have the same circle of friends there. H has said if she shows up, he'll leave. If he can't just leave, he'll avoid her until he can leave. He's said if she tried to talk with him, he'd tell her in no uncertain terms to leave him alone. He said if she tried to contact him by phone, text, email or whatever he'd tell her again to not contact him & would block her. He's saying all the right things, I am struggling with believing them.

Today is a busy day. I have an essay & op-ed to write for my English class, 3 chapters to read & 2 pages of questions for my Psychology class & 2 chapters, 2 essay questions & a quiz for World Civilizations all due this week. On top of that, D12 has a science project, D13 is having Halloween costume issues, vet appointments for both dogs, take my car in for 7 recall notices & a BBQ to plan, shop & cook for this Sunday. Oh & a baby shower Saturday I had forgotten to put on my calendar & my sister called this morning about. Meetng some friends tonight for another Monet & Merlot party. I think I'll need the Merlot more than the monet. Is it Monday yet? Lol