I'm not sure what I am going through right now. I feel much differently than a week ago. I was mad at W for taking up some of my time with the kids, and not happy with MIL for potentially interfering. But, it didn't ruin my night. Made me upset in the moment, then I got back to the present. These things would have kept me spun up for days, as little as a couple weeks ago.
I still think that I want my W back. But that feeling is a little less every day. I don't know if that is me learning to accept things, or detaching a bit, or ? She kept wanting to talk last night at kid swap. I was in the back of the house, and she followed the boys in to my place. When I dropped them off, she wanted to talk more. Not about us, but other random stuff.
Not sure how to proceed. Why does she still want to talk to me? It is all or nothing for me, and I am starting to feel like I can go with it either way. Before, I just kept telling myself that I will be ok. Now I think I believe it.
Today will be a good day!
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
