I am hearing, reading and following along, not posting much as I have had a couple of difficult weeks with my Fins.
Take your time, sweetheart, you have come a long way in such a short time. Some small and some really big spell breaks.
I have always felt that for 4my it is knowledge and learning that will have the biggest effect and make the greatest changes. I am very sure of it, you are very hungry for learning. It may be time to focus on you now, your GAL and your future with your beautiful lively happy D.
Lets just briefly discuss the key areas that would most help you. I see this as understanding both boundaries and detachment, so we can now cherry pick and move forward in these two specifically.
detatching is doing something for you which moves you forward, it can be a 180, or an adjustment to something which isn't quite working. In doing things for you which help you become the best 4my, you are moving forward. When you are working on you, you do so irrespective of the outcome on your R. Your primary aim is yourself.
That is letting go of the outcome or result on the R. Detaching isn't letting go of your WP, or a new R, you can still stand. There is no need to resist detaching from the outcome, ironically doing so whilst counter intuitive is more likely to create a positive outcome.
Let me just illustrate what I think, by becoming independent you are beginning to detach from your WP and think less emotionally. Of course we all have times when our thinking isn't bang on. Just forgive yourself, learn from it and move on. Its ok. After all new skills take practice, we don't say about a baby who is learning to walk and falls over, "hey that baby is no good at walking better stop them trying". We let the baby toddle, sit down, grab on to furniture and eventually they walk. So it is with us, all new skills take time.
its going to be ok, you are getting more knowledge becoming stronger, making more insights. Detaching.
It is great to see and read about.
Just see how much you have achieved and look forward to more. Take your time, that's your journey, no one else can do this for you. The GAL part is great fun too.
I would let the interaction about Wednesday go, just note it carefully for next time. What will you chose to do differently if it does happen again?
How can you detach and allow OW to be a mere nuisance rather than a focus?
I hope we are good?
Hugs
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
