Friday night was a blast! i went out with my mother and a huge group of her friends. The age of the group was some in their 80's all the way down to people in their 40's so I was not alone in my age group.
One part of the night was scary and sad and has stuck in my mind. We were all at a bar listening to a band. There were a handful of men in the group, and an overwhelming amount of women. You could practically feel the desperation in the air. I sat and spoke to one of my mom's friends. She was in her 60's. She told me she became a widow 9 years ago and has not dated once since. She said she was more than willing to date, but no one has asked.
Other than that, I had a lovely evening. I danced with the group and slow danced with some men my age. It felt so nice to have a tiny bit of physical contact after none for so long.
We went out to breakfast and we were a rowdy group. I fit in very well with everyone. It was so much fun.
My teen daughters had the homecoming game and they had to find a ride home, but it did not kill them. They seemed to have a good time at the game.
The next morning my son had the best soccer game of his life.
Me and the girls had a great time watching him. I even took the puppy for some fresh air.
Homecoming dance was Saturday, so I had to drive the girls to different before parties, different picture spots, then to the dance, but thankfully one girl was spending the night at a friends, so after the dance I only had to get one girl to an after party and then pick her up when it was over.
In the middle of the homecoming madness, I went to my friend's house for a party. Everyone there was my age and I had a little fun because there was a band and a bonfire, but the party for my age group was not nearly as fun as my mother's friends. My friends all just wanted to get as drunk as possible as fast as possible. They were so drunk that they were stumbling and falling all over the place. The police were called to the party before it was even 10:00pm.
It was nice seeing my friend and her family, we have been best friends since grade school. She invited friends over I used to work with in high school. It was nice getting hit on by guys my age. I even got complements on my appearance from some of the ladies there I have never met before. So I left with raised confidence, but i still did not have a great time.
Sunday we ran a bunch of errands and got a bunch of stuff done. Just me and the kids. Very nice weekend.
Nothing happened R wise and I did not expect it to. But today I blew that. I noticed my D was watching a TV show that she usually only watched with her father. But since he just wont contact her, she kinda has no choice. I knew she felt guilty about watching it, so I stupidly texted my H and asked him if he could watch it with her tonight. I told him we would all be out of the house so they would be alone.
He said no. Fine, I feel bad for my D but there is nothing I can do to help.
Then my older kid texted her D and asked him to take her home from work. I have no idea why, he never takes her home from work. But he was able to do that even though he couldnt see D15.
This sent me into a tailspin and for some reason I cannot pinpoint, I just an getting choked with pain tonight. I hate being alone, but I feel H is a jerk. Just dont know so I am just gonna go play with my kids and fall asleep. I will visit your threads in the a.m.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
