Lost and confused 2

[Clairee]

When does the anxiety go away? H has been gone a couple of days now. I feel just as anxious and emotional as I did after the BD. I am trying to keep busy & for the most part I can keep it at bay during the day. But at night & in my dreams, it's there. This fear he'll do it all again. I talked to H about it, told him everything I was feeling & he really tried to reassure me. He sent pictures of him in his room, face timed me, texted me. He's trying what he can. But I'm still just a ball of emotion.

So vets who have reconciled...does this ever go away? Do you ever stop worrying they'll repeat it all again?

I was doing fine when he was home, but now he's 2600 miles away for months & I feel like I'm falling apart. I'm trying just to stay busy, I'm not snooping & he's not acting suspicious or in any way different. But yet, here I am.