Ancaire, I hope you come out of this on the other side.
H and I had a calm and amicable conversation today where we agreed that we both feel this is not going well. There's no fighting or animosity, but he feels pressured and I feel unloved, so none of us are happy or satisfied. I'm sad, he's tired. He feels MC is just another form of pressure, so he doesn't want to go anymore (we haven't been for a couple of months).
He said he wants to be alone - not sure how that will happen, that's up to him if he wants to leave.
I wouldn't mind if he left.
M 16 yrs, WH62, P54 3 adult blended kids EA 11/13, BD1 6/14 PA fall 14, BD2 2/15 Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15 Separated 4/16 WH moved OW in 5/16 Divorced 6/15/17