Where to begin? Part 2

[Dawgs]

Thank you again, Thornton! You are so correct on the fog I am in.

So this weekend was pretty uneventful on the home front. On Saturday, the W had duty so she was at work while I kept the kids (BTW, by far I am the primary caregiver). That night I went over to some friend's and watched the game, which was a lot of fun. Raised an eyebrow, so that must good, eh?
On Sunday we did some family stuff by taking the kids to a pumpkin patch and let them pick out their pumpkins for Halloween. We all had a great time.

I wonder if the W's fog may be starting to lift a little. It seems as if the way she is treating me is changing. For example, in a post on her social media site she tagged me for the first time since before the BD. Maybe I am reading her actions wrong, but they seem more responsive to me. Heck, some of her texts yesterday were way more family oriented. Who knows. Guess we will find out in our next session tomorrow. I learned to not believe anything she says, but if those are signs then I don't know what is.

Honestly, I go back and forth between us having a chance - even a small one - to no chance at all. Just the way my mind works. She told me she hasn't contacted a L or filed, so we will see. Sometimes I alternate between feelings of dread and being at peace. I know that reading into things is not healthy, but I really don't know how to stop that.

One thing I find myself torn with is what level of "friendliness" do I need to be treating her with, especially when we do family things together? I know I need to be nice, friendly, and all that, but if she truly is planning on filing, then I don't want to be placed in the friend zone. I know there is a fine line with being "friends" or "friendly" and I definitely don't want her to put me in that zone. What is the best way to avoid becoming a "friend" like that? I don't want her to get comfortable in that aspect, because we all know how being friend zone is...