Still on the first chapter

[Enigma]

Thank you Cadet.

While the last 4 months have been a roller coaster, I've come to learn much about myself and the journey I need to continue. Since I've begun to focus more on myself and where I need to grow, I've felt better. The real complaints which I own and will work on for future (and valid on ww part):
- I was not there to emotionally support ww since S2 was born.
- I have been negative and down (looking depressed) when around the family at home.
- I didn’t really interact nor play with S2 that often.
- I sat on the couch weeknights and watched T.V., was on my phone playing games, and not communicating or listening to ww.
- No physical affection towards ww of any sort, and when I did try, I acted awkwardly.
- WW often complained I never initiated sex which I often shrugged off.
- I never interacted with friends nor was I social in any aspect of my life.
- I did not take charge of my life as my self-esteem and confidence were low.

As I have taken stock of ww complaints and introspection on myself, I have sought IC which has helped and am pushing myself further out of my comfort zone. I spend more quality time with S2 which has really helped as we grow closer. I want that to continue and become a better dad.

While ww has moved in with OM, I keep contact with her strictly about S2 or financial matters. All our financials have been separated for 3 months now as I clearly and calmly told her I would not support her lifestyle and will only provide for family related costs.

I have read DR.

Will continue to move forward and post some more.