LBH w/ a WW trying to save my M (2)

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Journaling......
Well didn't see her much this weekend which was nice. I was gone last weekend so she was away this weekend. I created a parenting plan and let her know it was at the house if she would like to review it. Also told her I didn't feel we needed to spend more money on a mediator. I'm not going to do any more of the work for her. I just did the parenting plan to show her it could be done with out spending another $500.

I felt really good this weekend. Just hanging with D4 and some friends. Didn't even really think about her much. I feel like I'm detaching more. And I believe I've been seeing a change in the dynamic.

Took D4 to the Pumpkin patch then football at a friends house Saturday. Sunday Church and then S12 and S14 baseball games. WW was already there. D4 went up to greet WW and I hung out by the dugouts. Close to game ending WW took D4 to the playground.
I sent a text that said " You ok with D4 this afternoon"
She replied " Yes, are you leaving?"
I replied "when the game ends"
I went to watch football at a friends and then to the casino to play poker. I was playing well and stayed pretty late. I got home at 3am. WW came into the MBR.
She said "where have you been"
I said "We aren't going to talk about things like that"
She said " I want to discuss the parenting plan"
I said " We can discuss it after work tomorrow. I'm going to bed"
She said "I think you've been drinking. I can tell by your mannerisms"
I said " I have not been drinking. I have not had a drink, sip or drop in over 15 months. Here smell my breath"
She said "your breath smells like vag*na" and left the room.

Dynamic changes
-more respect
-2 apologies
-asking if I'm leaving and where I have been
-accusing me of being with other women.

the great thing is that I've really come to place of I hope she returns and I know it will be a lot of work but if she doesn't I'm going to be great. I just had a great weekend with out her hanging with D4 and friends. On Saturday when I saw her at the baseball game I even thought "I don't even find you attractive.....actually you are disgusting and repulse me"