I am grateful today:

Had a great dinner with sister and BIL last night.

Get the boys tonight, going to make them a nice dinner.

Had a family member stop by and visit last night for a couple hours. He went through D a couple years ago, so his perspective helps.

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I'm not sure if it has been the time apart this week, but I feel a little more distant/withdrawn/? from her. It is easier for me, when I don't see her. It helps that others are seeing how strange she is acting. I was worried that it was just towards me, but apparently not. In a selfish way, which I am not proud of, I felt relieved to know that W had not taken the boys to go do a bunch of stuff on her half of the vacation. I was worried that I cannot compete with her and her parents. But, that wasn't the case. I'm looking forward to seeing the boys tonight. Not looking forward to seeing her at the switch.

That is different for me. I used to love any chance to see her and/or talk to her. Not now. I need the time away to settle down my emotions. Maybe it will help break the fog, maybe not. It seems to help me though.

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Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....