Zues, I agree with you completely and your mom is amazing. However, I am starting to realize that there is a part 2. The part where the story changes, and it is no longer about your commitment or lack of it. It is about the fact that sometimes things really are out of your control. And then the story becomes how do you deal with that? How do you go on and have the best life possible, and be the best person you can be, in the face of having lost.
I am not ready for that story yet, and am still committed to reconciling the marriage. I do not want to lose my family. But I do recognize that there is more to it than my commitment alone, I really might lose this one. But I won't go down without doing every last thing that I can possibly do. I am not giving up.
