You are going through a difficult time at the moment and I really feel for you as I remember many of the feelings (overwhelmed, sad, powerless...) you have right now (having Rouky stalking wasn't one of them ).
What did make sense to me when I was down and in dark places was to focus on one thing and work out how you are going to deal with that and then get it done before moving on to anything else.
If I may, you've got a doctors appointment on Monday, maybe that's the thing you should focus your mind on? What are you going to say when sit down in that chair? What questions are you going to ask? What do you want to achieve?
As and when you think of these things over the weekend write them down and take the list in with you, don't trust your memory on such important things.
Be well Shotgun, know that there are many who are thinking of you. The one step at a time mantra is so important for you right now, so stick with it and start your own healing by doing so.
- Nobody has ever learnt anything important from happiness and success; problems make us grow - Consult your plan, not your feelings - If you haven't set goals, how can you expect to achieve anything?
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