My body is fighting me, it is headache, purging and I am very achy. I am physically afraid and exhausted as a result of the issues I have found, some very damaging indeed. I am very anxious and stressed the last two days. Perhaps the resistance is because I would rather not do this, I would rather it went away altogether. I am going to keep on until this is done.
I think my blood sugar is out of order, there is fog, horrors and nasal issues. Not good. Resistance, perhaps if I resolve this I can move on. What will I find at the end of this? Is my business viable? Have I allowed issues with WH to disguise an unpleasant truth?
Yes, I am afraid and that is causing me stress. Whatever. The past has to be resolved no matter, clients invoiced for past work. Then we will see.
Yesterday I achieved only a small amount of work. I tackled some of the worst reconciliation issues in the sole trade and some transactions took a very long time.
Today I reached May 2015 WH left 2 May 2015 and I started managing the transactions and it's much easier the transactions are cleaner and there are fewer problems.
So today I am pushing on with it, I have decided this week until Sunday then I have to go back to normal:
I will with energy concentration and joy:
1. Finish posting the sole trade 2. Reconcile the sole trade debtors ledgers 3. Raise standing order invoices 4. Post cash transactions 5. New bank statements that have come in this month to post 6. Start the current VAT return 7. Reconcile and agree the VAT ledgers in the VAT reg company
All of that today.
V
Thanks all, I am still doing no 2 haven't stopped. I have discovered a number of things in doing it. WH was borrowing cash from the business and then repaying it. As for lending cash to the business, he was taking it from my personal accounts to do that and then repaying himself from it.
Turns out he has never paid an equal share on expenses either!
I have until Sunday afternoon to get this under control then real life starts. I am hot housing the work and am getting very tired working into the night.
All the ranting and obnoxious behaviour was to disguise his actions.
With this kind of behaviour I got confused and left it alone.
I will now tread this inter relationship with stbxwh like a business R and be very clear on my actions.
Onwards until this is done. I am not stopping, usually I get 80% done then say another time, because I can and do finish. Not this time because I sense that is the 20% that will get me my results with my fins.
Gives me a clean start, I can pack away everything to do with WH and if any questions are asked then I will understand the sitch.
I have one important job to do for clients that I must not forget. The deadline is midnight on the 19the, and there will be fines if I don't so I will have to go to the office to do it. Won't take 20 mins but going out may do me good.
Last time I went out was Thursday lunchtime, had chiropody and diabetes check.
Onwards
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
