Wow, guys! Your support is incredibly uplifting for me. I hope for this to be a VERY quiet week. He'll do his thing, I'll do mine. Retrouvaille next Friday. MC the following Tuesday.
Both if us are like scared rabbits right now. We need some calm times before the real work begins. No loud noises!
I see glimpses of my "real" H again. He's seeing glimpses of the girl he married. It's a start. We both destroyed our marriage. We reacted in different ways, but we each played a role.
I really do feel I'll be able to get past the A. Surprisingly, that is not the main thing I think of when I start pondering our difficulties. H asked about that, too. I told him I was hurt, deeply, but surprisingly not as angry as I thought I would be. I believe it's because I am aware of the extent my own actions got us to a place something like that was even a possibility.
