TxHubby, I wish you could talk to my H too. I really wish someone would step in on my behalf.
I also wish that someone had pulled me aside pre-BD and opened my eyes. I don't know that I would have believed them though. I guess some lessons have to be learned in the hardest way possible. I have officially been humbled by this experience.
I really don't understand theses ass hats. We all reflect on our lives. Do they want to look back and see that they made a joke of their whole life and hurt so many people that loved them? What the hell kind of life is that. I was a Marine sergeant at one time and I'd love to go all drill instructor on men acting like this. I wish I could run a "boot camp" for dipshit men acting like total jackasses to their wives and family. Drop them off with me for 6 weeks, when you get them back they'll never do this [censored] again. The whole first week will probably be just me kicking them in their asses so hard and often that they have to eat standing up. Then we'll work on the story of their lives. We all write our life stories every minute of every day. That's something that someone older and wiser shared with me when I was very young. I've thought about that every time I face decisions in my life. Do the right thing or do the wrong thing? Dishonoring your marriage is never ever the right thing. It never ends well for the jackass that does it. Again, at the end of it all, what do these assholes want the story of their lives to be? The hero? ...or the villain?