Lost and confused 2

[Clairee]

Well today H left to go back to California. I am a bundle of nerves. I guess this is the real test of how far we've come and if he's really committed. He told me repeatedly before he left this is where he wanted to be and where he belonged. He tried really hard to reassure me he wouldn't do anything like before, he would never hurt me like that again or throw away the work we've done these last few months. My head hears it all, but my heart is racing and I'm worried. Im just hoping this is short lived & only because it's the day he left. Hoping tomorrow is better & praying he means everything he said.