Thank you everyone for your responses. I had a really rough day emotionally but kept true to DB. H sent a couple of texts, I responded back almost 2 hours later with a picture of the kids at the parade. No comments, just the pic of the kids.
Had some fun watching the parade, met a couple of new people, then took the kids to have dinner at the food truck event. All of my kids are now at the game without me, this is new! I live right by the high school, I can hear the cheering and the band from my living room so I feel like I am a part of it, but I am in my comfy pjs with a cup of tea enjoying my warm house and not freezing my butt off out there. I really needed some alone time.
I am thankful for good friends who help me with my kids. I am thankful for a fun, very family oriented neighborhood. I am thankful for this DB site, because without all of you I'd be divorced right now.
I wanted my H so badly today, I am aching for him with my body and soul. But I stayed true to DB and I am not scaring him off with my desperation. I took good care of myself and all 3 children today. Everyone is happy and nurtured and loved. I can hold my head up high, as a mother, as a woman, as a friend, and even as a wife because I am loving him in the only way I can right now, quietly and from a distance, I can hold my head high even if my heart is on the floor.
Peace to all of my DB friends tonight, virtual hugs to you all.
