I'm thankful today that I am aware that most of the hateful things I hear directed at me, are a direct result of the hurt and confusion H is suffering.
I'm thankful that I understand that the end of the affair is quite hard on him because of a pleasant thing called limerance. It's as if he is going through a drug withdrawal.
I'm thankful that Azzork reminded me that had OW been an ugly, biting annoying little dog, and it had died...I would feel badly for H; no matter how much I despised the wretched thing!
I'm thankful that I have not called H, just to check on him.
I'm thankful for Rule #32: Do not believe anything they say and 50% of what they do. Your spouse will speak in absolute negatives because he/she is hurting and scared.
I'm thankful for my friends here, who have talked me off the edge more than once.
I'm thankful that I not only cleaned out my closet (3 bags to Goodwill), I also cleaned the house! My energy and health are both clearly improving.
I'm thankful for my children. They are each unique, amazing, and wonderful.
I'm thankful I will be a grandmother (EEK!) sometime in November. The used my name to come up with a middle name. Her name will be Sawyer Jae. Sawyer Judy just sounds...crappy. LOL
I'm thankful that all is not lost. I just need to keep the peace for one week, until we get with people who know what they're doing.
